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Gotta love tension!!!

You know, just when I thought things were really starting to smooth over between myself and the "2nd job"- I realized that they are not.  My boss denied my transfer b/c she does not think I work hard enough.  Honestly, lying to me first, then telling me what she said was pathetic on her part- from what she told me, too, she lied to the other manager.  She basically wants me to prove myself able to transfer, which I can understand, but she doesn't like me anymore than I like her, nor does she want me working for her anymore than I want to work for her- hence why I wanted the transfer in the first place.  I guess one big pressure point with her is that she doesn't even have the decency to point me out as senior staff.  Um...I'm the only associate to work at our store the longest.  However, heaven forbid she forgets one of the few people who suck-up to her.  She gives them whatever they ask.  She told me that I "dug a hole for myself and I need to climb out" and that "she can't just set me on top and ask me to maintain it."  I was thinking, "Umm...last time I checked you were the manager and you can do whatever you want." She believes that how I perform for her is how I will perform for any other manager.  Haha, truth is is that I work very hard for people I like (indication of how I feel about her right now).  In fact, at OU, I've impressed my boss so much that my work has also impressed another professor and he offered me a job in his lab.  Don't get me wrong, I love the company of the "2nd job", but I don't care for my boss.  If I were to transfer, my attitude, movtivation, everything-under-the-sun would improve like no other.  I would work hard for any other boss than the current one.  You would think she would have approved it simply to get rid of me (she referred to me as "her headache")- hey boss, feelings mutual!

However, her little partner-in-crime tried to milk me for info, but it was a sad, transparent attempt.  Rumor is spreading that I said I hated my boss- NEVER HAPPENED!  I don't care if people talk about me, but at least have the balls to get your story straight!!!  Anyway, I said that I didn't like her, not that I hated her.  So her partner tried to investigate as to why.  I pointed out that what is happening is strictly between the boss and myself, and does not concern ANYONE else (staring at her).  She also suggested that I talk to the staff to straighten things out- Pish, yeah right!  Why on earth should I embarrass myself b/c the staff is spreading rumors?!?!?  Then once again she brought up our first encounter (WAY BACK in OCTOBER!!).  After I left work, I realized that she consistently brings that up when we discuss anything, which if she keeps pestering me about it- which she does, I'm pretty sure that falls under harrassment.  The partner also brought up how she has never met anyone as nice as our boss.  I quickly replied with, "Well, I have."  Partner has been living under some kind of rock.  Either way, the partner disappeared to the back (leaving the store w/o a MOD on the floor- that's a no-no by company standards) to what I can assume was to fill the boss in on our little conversation.  I assume that b/c I got looks from the boss twice, but I just glanced up and continued working.  I don't really care what the boss thinks about me- she doesn't have grounds to fire me.  I'm allowed 3 strikes, and I'm almost 99% sure I don't even have one (1% for error).  I show up for all of my shifts, and do my job. 

Again, I love the company, but not my boss.  So that hardly pushes me to want to quit (which is what I think my boss is trying to do).  I think that b/c of the low hours, the mockery of Partner about my expressions...kind of tiring.  None-the-less, I've said it before and I'll say it again, "I've worked for worse."

I know boss and parnter will read this, and make some comment about my xanga, but this is an on-line journal, so what's wrong with letting other people know what you think?  I know they will try and turn the tables on me with something about xanga, but no one is forcing them to read it and if they don't like it- don't read it.  Pretty simple, don't you think?  Nothing I've mentioned so far has failed to be a lie.

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So today I rocked the AE world once more.  I was all over projecting like white on rice.  It was kind of boring at first b/c it was just Suzanne and myself, which was fun in and of itself, but it became more fun when more people started to show up b/c then the conversations expanded between all employees.  All of "projected" like crazy and we were all sensoring, scanning, sizing, correcting, ringing, answering phones, getting fitting rooms, on-line ordering, making schedules, unpacking freight, and laughing about all the stuff in and between.

I put in 9 hours, Suzanne- 10, and we both left at 6p, nearly dead.  I think if we could, we both would have collapsed and just fallen asleep on the floor.  Poor Suzanne dropped a box of freight on her foot- she was in flip-flops.  Heather was still sick and felt like dying.  Josh learned how to do quite a bit of new stuff today, which he seemed to be grateful for seeing as how he was bored at first and was eagerly wanting something to do.  Christian came and left early- he wasn't feeling too good.  Hunter (a new guy) came in for his second shift since he was hired (on Saturday).  He's pretty funny, b/c I know he wants to learn register (he keeps eyeing it from time to time and apparantly has asked when he will learn it) <- he reminds me of me when I was first hired b/c I wanted to learn register so-o bad, but it took Sarah almost 3 months before she let me ring, although, she didn't approve it- Carrie (Asst. Manager- now Store manager of Stillwater AE) is the one that approved me.  I LOVE register like no other and love teaching it, so hopefully, when Trish approves Hunter to learn, she will let me teach him.

BTW, I met another Delta Chi today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I was so syked (yeah, I know, who says that), but still...  I didn't catch his name, but he attends KU (???) and his mom was the one to notice my shirt (A red, wine-labeled DX shirt) and she asked about it.  When I said it was my fraternity, that's when the guy said he was a DX.  That totally brightened my day b/c I've never met a DX outside of OU (except a couple of guys to LSU, but that's different).  Anyway- cool.

Oh and b/c Trish and Suzanne read this from time to time...I've finally decided to share the myspace addy, so now you can read that.  It isn't as interesting as xanga in terms of journal entries, but it's more decorative (music, pics, etc).  Anyway, Suzanne, when you get a chance, read the blog, "Dedications and Shout Outs"- it will explain the song playing on Myspace.  THEN, let me know what you think, b/c I will be changing the music from time to time.

go to myspace.com and search the screenname (I think)...It's "I'm better than you and I know it" and you should be able to find me.

So my friend/co-worker was promoted to assistant manager.  I'm super-thrilled for her, but nervous for her, too.  I'm going to miss her, but on the plus, I will be able to see her more b/c she'll be working in Norman, which will give me a reason to visit the AE in Norman. 

Suzanne makes me laugh!  Haha, okay, so most of the staff has realized that Suzanne and I are doing better in terms of our relations with each other.  Now, we don't hate each other, but there are still tensions lurking, but seldom surface.  Anyway, I don't know what happened this past week, but I think I was pretty amazing!!!  I totally spent like the past few days filling the floor with items from the back of the store.  I price-checked, folded or hung, answered the phone, got dressing rooms, and even had a register going at times- I WAS AMAZING THE FIRST DAY (and the others, too)!!!  Anyway, I think that is when Suzanne finally started to like me.  She never once had to get on to me about anything (she is the only one who can ever find something wrong with my performance...haha, that could totally sound wrong if you take it to a perverted place).  So, about half-way through my shift of the first day I went "Gung-ho", Suzanne presented me with a star!!  It's only a paper star that gets put in the back, but it means something more to me b/c it's my first one EVER and I'm proud of it.  I read it everytime I leave from the back b/c it's on the back of the door. 

But I digress, b/c today, Suzanne told me that she and Trish had a goal set for me.  They wanted to see if I could move all the current items from the back (men and women) and push all of the items to the floor.  Needless to say, that within 4 hours EVERYTHING CURRENT WAS ON THE FLOOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   Suzanne was completely blown away by the fact that I did it.  Shoot- I was even impressed by my work.

Oh, and I digress again...ADD Xanga style!

OH, but my friend Erin was promoted and I'm super-thrilled for her.  I was looking at the schedule on the back of the door to the back of the store, and I noticed that there are like 3-4 people who really have seniority over me, but 3 of them are too busy already with their lives/commitments to other things to ever take on the position of an Asst. Manager, so aside from Christian, I'm next!!!  Okay, now I know Trish and Suzanne are reading this, so yeah I haven't been the best worker ever, but I think we've all seen that I've improved like no other this past week and I think subconsciously, seeing Erin be promoted motivates me to work harder b/c I want to be promoted hopefully before Christmas 2006.  However, I think the only way that will happen is if another already-management worker steps down, which as of now, doesn't look like anyone.  The only one I can think of that would possibly consider it would be my friend Elizabeth, at Quail b/c she graduates in May 2006.  Although, I doubt she would step down right away.  So, I'm planning to work hard like no other and then I would like to take on like 40 hr/wks over the summer to prove that I can handle management work and I want to learn how the books work SLOWLY, not all at once, but slowly work my way through the process of openings and closings so that by Christmas I will have proven that I know how to do anything/everything.

Today was the first OFFICIAL day of Spring Break, and it wasn't a bad one, either.  I spent the day with my family, which was something that I needed to do.  Ever since school started this semester, I've been busier than ever.  With my education, volunteer work, two jobs, and my fraternity- the only time I would see my family is when I came home to sleep.  So this was a much-needed time-togther thing.

First, we went to the OKC zoo, which was fun.  None of us had been there in a few years, so it was fun to go back.  There is a baby rhino, now.  She was born in January 2006, so that was our first stop.  We saw "The Great escAPE" and that was fun, too, b/c there were two baby gorillas (1-1yr, 1-2yr old).  We walked practically all over the zoo, and since mom forgot the camera, I used my camera phone to capture the great, kodak moments!  At the end, I went to the gift shop and my mom bought me a white tiger poster (White Tigers are my favorite animals).

After the zoo, we went to Crossroads mall and walked around for awhile.  I went to the Crossroads AE, and needless to say, they have a cool store.  They also have some items that we didn't get in our store, but I liked them so much, I might go back and pick one or two things up later.

After that trip, we went to Harkins Theatres to catch a showing of "Final Destination 3", which as it turns out wasn't showing until around 9p, and it was only 5:45p, and with limited things to do in Bricktown, we left and went to Quail Springs AMC.  We bought our tickets and walked around, which is when I found a pair of flips that I loved.  I bought a pair of Nike Flips last summer and they are super comfortable (I still have them).  However, they've started to wear down and I liked them so much that when I was in famous footwear, I saw them and bought a newer pair.  Of course, these are gray and black, but still made the same.  At $20, it was worth it. 

"Final Destination 3" is definately worth seeing.  It was very suspenseful.  I questioned it being good seeing as how by the time those people get to the 3rd movie, it's usually pretty predictable.  However, this one was good.  Several people were in it that looked familiar, but I couldn't place them in anything I'd seen previously.  However, the only one I could recognize was Ryan Merriman.  He's done a lot of Disney movies like "The Luck of the Irish" and once again, he played a jock.  Go fig for originality in a movie- none-the-less, it was good.  Oh, but some of the ways that people die- ewww...  (won't spoil it, read on)...they die in manners more relevant to teens of today- GO SEE IT!

So some newer things that I forgot in the last entry...

1) I saw Ultraviolet.  I liked it quite a bit, but it didn't really make too much sense.  Apparently is was a comic character, but I never knew that, so I'm guessing that some of the things that happened in the movie make sense to those who understand the history of the character.   None-the-less, I saw that movie last Saturday and Milla was so hott in the movie- words cannot describe it.  I think I have a thing for girls that can fight and look hott doing it.  I mean, we are talking any movie where the girls are kicking butt using martial arts...Resident Evil: Apocolypse- Milla Jovovich and Sienna Guillory, Ultraviolet- Milla Jovovich, Electra- Jennifer Garner, The Mummy Returns- Rachel Weisz...and the list can continue.

2) I saw "The Hills Have Eyes" tonight, and that movie is definately not for those who have a weak stomach.  Definately very gruesome, but worth watching.  It's quite suspenseful, but very difficult to continue eating popcorn.  I would still recommend seeing it, and they leave it open for a sequel, which no doubt will prolly be in theatres by next summer.

3) I FINALLY talked to my mom about moving to Norman.  We were at Wal-mart last night when I mentioned it.  At first, she thought I was talking about moving into an apartment on my own, which even I know I couldn't afford.  I told her ALL about the colony house that my fraternity wants to have until we find an actual house for the  whole fraternity to move into, which will be in about a year.  So I talked to my mom, and had my points already laid out, numbers crunched, pros and cons made, etc- ALL SET!  So we talked for awhile while we were shopping, and I think I finally convinced her.  One of my points was that I spend at least $40 on gas/wk, which tallies $120/month, not-to-mention at least 30 hrs/month I spend on driving to and from Norman.  After we discussed how I would save and how I could easily improve everything, she seemed to be more open to it.  However, our one deal is that my grades have to be EXTREMELY good, prolly a 3.5-4.0 before she'd even let me know out.  THEN, I have to keep my grades at that for me to continue living there.  I think I can handle it- but it will be different.

My mom is also, in some ways, trying to convince me to stay.  I understand that she loves me and doesn't want to lose me.  However, she should be happy that I've come to the decision to move and that I feel I'm ready to do so.  She should be happy that I'm not looking to her to pay my share of the rent, but that I've figured all of it out.  She should be happy for me and trust that she has prepared me to live on my own.  So we'll see how this works out.